The Need to Destroy

and I say, "There's trouble when everything is fine..." the need to
destroy things creeps up on me everytime... and just as love's
silhouette appears... I close my eyes and disappear...--Jenny L.

I'm coming down to meet tears
avoiding talks and facing fears
this isn't all
tell me to stay away
push me down a hill
into another man
i'll go so easily
rolling, slip sliding
you don't know what this means
you don't know how far your little tap will take me
but you're knocking me out of orbit
you miss me and i miss you
and then we put these lines in place
do not cross
they are piercing me when i press up against these rails
to peek at you with her
they are keeping us apart
don't be surprised when they hurt you too
responsibility
perspective
commitment
and emotions
lining up and having a fight
these new shoes are giving me blisters
i've been walking 'round in circles
pacing all over town
looking for an answer to land
my mouth won't do the moving
and my feet don't know where to go
damnit I just don't fucking know