here and there

Walking to the hum of the street lights
keys pinched in my finger tips
jangle
making myself known
velvet bag swinging by my side
these long strides take me home
but I turn the corner
changing my mind
thinking i should just go home
but i keep going
four more blocks
to find the door shut
i change my mind
i turn the corner
in a circle homeward
stepping to the hum of the street light
what am i doing
what am i doing
what am i doing
day after a day
opening a door to an empty room
what am i doing
here alone
and there alone